Let's talk about me being stupid

Why not talk about me when I am being stubborn and stupid.

It happens all the time so why not shed some light on some of these moments.

I guess I shouldn't call what I did stupid, stubborn fits it better. What I did was sort of smart, but mostly over the top and unnecessary.

I'm actually going to give a story from a road trip.

It's rare for me to talk about something I am involved with now, but what the heck, why not.

After landing in Pittsburgh this year I went to help get the bags from the baggage claim. After we got all of the bags off everyone went to go get something to eat. I think I stayed to watch the bags. Not exactly sure, but anyway I decided that the bags weren't well organized and I was trying to think of a way to organize them so everyone could find their bags easily so we could get on the road to practice, on time.

Time is something that has been drilled into my head by my father. Lateness is to never be tolerated by him, so I get really anxious when I think I will be late to something. Anything that would save time and make us earlier than normal was good for me.

I told the volunteer assistant that we should put all the bags in numerical order to speed things up. He said "We don't have time for that."

Like the stubborn and stupid person I am, I decided I wanted to proof him wrong on this one. Coach Auriemma also was talking to me in my head from what he said at our graduation for our commencement speech and that is that if someone says that you can't do something, then that is when you need to make sure you do it.

I also am always searching of ways to do more and to do a better job and to exceed expectations and sometimes that is difficult to do. I want to constantly challenge myself to be better because complacency leads to a lot of bad things. Someone earlier that day had also forgotten the cones (not me, but I felt like I should have double checked and found them) on the bus back in Hartford so I felt like I needed to do something to make sure I wasn't just left at the airport for being so useless. (Ok, so I wasn't worried about being left at the airport for being useless...sarcasm here)

So I decided that one way I could improve how things were done, and do my job better would be to organize 22 bags in numerical order at a luggage claim. I was also supposed to get food while this happened and I made sure I did that and also organized these bags.

I went and got a banana, ate it and went to work. I started with number 95 on one end and 0 at the other and gradually, through lots of moving and sweating and high blood pressure, got them all in order by the time everyone had gotten their food.

I was really determined to get these bags organized all because someone innocently said it couldn't be done.

And seriously why would anyone care if it wasn't done?

But I cared, and took it as a challenge. My determination and inability to relax until everything was in order caught the attention of one of the players. She told me to relax.

She was totally right, and she knew it and I knew it, but wasn't about to admit to needing to relax.

But her comment to relax had the opposite effect on me because it also fed the fire and pissed me off. I tried to give her a death stare/pissed off look back as if to say "leave me alone, I am going to do this no matter how pointless, unnecessary and over the top this is" and I'm not sure if I did give off that vibe because I am not really that mean.

I think one player noticed, and I'm pretty sure it didn't take them long to figure out who did that. By process of elimination there is only one person stubborn and stupid enough to take an innocent comment as a challenge...on whether or not you could organize luggage in an airport terminal.

By the time we had gotten on the bus, and also found our trainers lost bag, my heart was about to explode.